Have to get this out of my system. Sorry to lay it on all of you but I am so, so angry - not with anyone in particular, but with what life is dealing me lately.
Went to the hospital for my oncology checkup today and once again my CA125 levels are creeping back up and are not in the 'safe' range. So it looks like I am not in remission as I thought and for the third time this darn cancer is back. It just seems to go on and on and on. So now have to go and have another scan though they don't expect to find anything yet - just another waiting game like last time. After all I went through over the last 18+ months I didn't want to know, talk or hear about cancer again but now once more I have no choice.
Will just save this blog for a while before deciding whether to post it but it was good to write it down - just like having a silent scream!!
PS: Yes, I will post this - it is a bit like putting your troubles in a box then closing it for a while!